It is very easy to lose yourself when in the throws of a mental health breakdown. I have fought my way through many aspects of recovery and only now do I feel able to work on reconnecting with myself and who I am. Deciding to share and document my journey was not an easy one to make; after hiding it and presenting myself as competent for so long, it will likely come as a shock to those who know me - or think they do. I have struggled with my mental health and self-harm since I was a teenager. I had years of therapy up until I was 18 years old, however nothing really changed for me - those same demons were still there waiting for opportunities to take me down. I dabbled with all sorts of drugs and alcohol during my younger years and it wasn't until I was 19 that I finally stopped for good after accidentally overdosing on cocaine - not my finest moment I must say! Now I am 31 years old, mum of three 7 year old troublemakers (not really, they are awesome) and engaged to the most beautiful woman in the world (Faye) who I consider my soulmate. yes, you have read it correctly, I am a lesbian (to all heterosexual women- you have no idea what you are missing!) seriously, I was married to a man before I met Faye... We live happily together with 6 bunnies and a border collie called Chase. Our house bunny is a Continental Giant called Dandelion and it is her stories of mischief that will feature on my blog. In Watership Down it is a bunny called Dandelion that tells all the stories of the warren, so this is my attempt at a cool spin off idea! I am currently living with many different health issues, so all hasn't always been sunshine and rainbows for me and my family. In 2018 I was finally discharged from outpatient eating disorder services for Bulimia Nervosa. I have battled an eating disorder for as long as I remember. However I can now proudly say that I am in remission and hope to stay this way forever! In terms of my mental health, I also live with Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD), Anxiety and Depression. At the end of 2017 I tried to take my own life by overdosing on codeine and Paracetamol - 96 tablets. To say the least, my mental health recovery has been long and hard but well worth it and I have EVERYTHING to live for. Unfortunately, my mental health decline also kicked my physical illness into action so I have been experiencing horrible flare ups of my Fibromyalgia and Joint Hypermobility Syndrome. Some days I struggle to do my own hair and move my legs properly, and some days are okay - I never really know what i'm going to get until I wake up that morning. Like some kind of not so lucky, lucky dip! and don't even get me started on the weather... I still LOVE doing acts of kindness. I previously ran a random act of kindness project and blog, before deciding to incorporate it into this blog; which I have been planning for a long time. I am a qualified, registered Social Worker by profession, as well as a qualified psychic reader and holistic healer. However I am practising neither currently due to my health; but I do look forward to the day I can get my career back on track! So there is a brief run down of all the major areas in my life that will be touched on in this blog - you can't say I didn't warn you! Crystal healing is a huge part of my physical and mental recovery so you will also learn a lot about crystals and what they can do for you here! Please take care when reading my blog as some posts could potentially trigger your own struggles. Posts of this nature will have a trigger warning attached! I really hope that my ramblings about my life and recovery will reach people who really need to know they are not alone, and that it is okay to be open and honest about both mental and physical health. I am proud of everyone who is able to talk about it and raise awareness. I am equally proud of myself too - I don't think I have ever said that before. Welcome to my bunny crystal life <3 xxx
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